Tuesday, December 28, 2010

STOP LEAVING ME BEHIND.

(i need to make this blog private, it is my only sounding board for all the times i feel sorry for myself, and it's embarrassing.)

i miss christian.

i really do.

Friday, December 24, 2010

i wonder if i'll ever be ok.

Monday, December 6, 2010

mumford and sons hasn't stopped making my heart swell yet
i love that my desk is littered with paints and brushes.  i am feeling particularly creative.
finals are on wednesday but i'm wholly unconcerned.
day 4 of no smoking.  going strong.
starting to think about my theme for 2011.  big changes ahead.  gonna go ahead and not panic.  counterproductive.

sometimes want to reduce my communcation to stops and starts.  morse code.  sign language.  grunts and mutters.  a series of raised bumps.  my throat is still sore.