some days i wake up really lonely.
like today.

someone hug me.

painting my nails and watching Food, Inc. when i should be studying for my cognitive pysch midterm tomorrow. it's kind of hard to study for an exam that is open book/open note. i think i'll be fiiiine.

man, i really hope this movie scares me out of buying food at grocery stores. i've already cut out meat and buy in bulk as much as possible. No Impact Man made me aware of how much garbage i produce. this movie needs to make me more aware of where my food comes from.

5 minutes in and i'm already freaked out by the whole industry. yikes.

I'm working on a new story for 100F.  It took me a while to get going on this one, but now that I have some steam, I'm really enjoying the writing.  Though...it is taking an emotional toll on me.   the subject matter is heavy, and trying to do it justice is difficult to say the least.

"They are in the car, driving towards his childhood home where his mother and father patiently wait.  A doula for most of her entire life, Jacob's mother has been promised the birth of her first grandchild.  His wife is pregnant for the sixth time and they are both certain that this time they will deliver on that promise.

Margot has made it to the eighth month.  She is quiet, her head resting on the passenger side window leaving a greasy stain on the glass.  Neither has spoken in an hour.  There is the fear that if either one breathes too loudly, the baby will come and it will be too soon.  They have never made it this far before and the unfamiliar territory they now find themselves in extends out like a tightrope stretched between two mountains.  They are balanced in the middle and afraid to look down."

my baby bianchi is being worked on by a lovely fellow who knows much more than i do about bikes.  soon enough, i will be back on two wheels!  i miss riding my bike through davis streets, especially now with the weather cooling down and the leaves falling from the trees.  a lovely refurbished single speed will be the perfect addition to my autumn days!

sitting at my kicthen table, sweating and nose running from my super spicy dinner, i cannot help but grin when i catch myself thinking, "ashleigh, you're so pretty!"  it's nice having confidence even when you feel so gross.

Mumford and Sons - Little Lion Man

oh my goodness, Mumford and Sons. HOW DID I NOT KNOW?

this is just what i need to kick the last year of undergraduate work off right. music that is both mournful and uplifting.

WHY DON'T I LIVE IN NEW YORK?
california, you bore me.  i need skyscrapers and people with an overwhelming sense of entitlement.  oh, yeah - and the company of all the amazing folks i left behind last time i was in the true "city".  take me hoooommeee.

i'm in an american apparel deep-v feeling mighty douchy, at the computer lab, looking woefully out the window at a town i don't feel like belonging to anymore.  SOMEONE, SAVE ME.